Keep the faith
At some point in time I was one of those people of the opinion that I don’t have a calling. I just believed somehow that people who said they had a calling just wanted to do that particular thing and went ahead and just did it. Well, today I’m of a different opinion and stance.
I’m feeling a calling to ensure that Bibles are affordable. Each Christian who can read should have a bible to call their own. Some will read this and all I ask of you is to pray for this ministry. I know it may be difficult at first but that’s why I’m calling on you to stand with me in the gap.
I know great and wonderful things are going to take place this year in god’s house in Zimbabwe. We need to keep on praying as the enemy is working full time to discourage prayerfulness.
Remember this is the year for breakthrough for those of us society sees as not normal and not having achieved by society’s standards.
We need to keep on praying.
I want to thank God for all He has delivered to me in this short space of time of 2013
Many times we say to each other wait, and wait we should
Our times do come at different stages to the next person and we should NEVER be discouraged or lose hope
The scripture that says the devil came to lie, steal and destroy is one verse many Christians have not given much thought to
When it comes to lying it’s really about day to day perceptions and what society has made to be the norm
Stealing is when we lose hope because of the distractions and hurdles that come our way- when we do that our faith falters and our blessings go to unbelievers and we think we’re not doing something that they’re doing
YES! We are not doing something they are doing. They have faith that in their barrenness they can get and they do. We don’t have the same faith in our lord at times and we let this blessings be taken away from us
NEVER LOSE FAITH and HOPE
Destroying is actually the last when we feel depressed – he would have killed our fortress that was keeping us shielded from everyday problems
Christians! Let’s stand firm on THE WORD that never changes and claim our ground and position on this earth
We are more than conquerors but we can only be that when we pray and believe and wait in expectation
“ My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations;
Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience.
But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.
If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall be given him.
But let him ask in faith, nothing wavering. For he that wavereth is like a wave of the sea driven with the wind and tossed.
For let not that man think that he shall receive any thing of the Lord.
A double minded man is unstable in all his ways.” James 1:2-8
Renewing covenants
Every new year we affirm/strengthen/make a new/renew our covenant with God at our church
How do we do this?
We have a special service beginning of the year where we recommit/commit our lives to God and we partake of holy communion
And based on the theme of the year we have daily services after hours for the full month linked to that theme
So this year our theme is “God is able” taken from the book of Daniel
Along with the services we also partake in a period of prayer and fasting in the month of Jnauary
This used to be ten days then it moved to thirty one days
This was because when we did it for ten days we challenged ourselves to say can we not do it for the full month?
And so thirty one days of prayer and fasting started
When we get to thirty some extend to make it forty days
Do I follow this religiously?
No.
My period of fasting varies year to year depending on whatever is happening at the time. My relationship with God is guided by my church but it is not defined by my church
It is defined by Him and my age in spirit
But whenever I get the opportunity to attend the evening services I do attend and this year has been different from others as I can actually leave work at knock off time and attend service
I invite you to share with me my learnings and gleanings of the services that attend on my other blog so that you too may be uplifted and you take time one reviewing your covenant with God.
Myths & drunkenness
“And the LORD answered me, and said, Write the vision, and make it plain upon tables, that he may run that readeth it. For the vision is yet for an appointed time, but at the end it shall speak, and not lie: though it tarry, wait for it; because it will surely come, it will not tarry.” Habakkuk 2:2-3
So the other day we could not leave the car park as there were railway wagons blocking the exit from the car park.(Where do I work that’s got railway tracks? In the industrial area of my town )
So we thought it better than complain about it, why not chat about it?
So we got to know about trains and how they’re shunted and why these wagons were taking long to be moved from where they were
So we asked if it was true if a train actually derailed when one placed a needle on the tracks
What?
You see, growing up we’d been told that a derailment would result and none of us EVER tried it. Naughty as we may have, we had a conscience and NEVER tried it.
What’s the answer?
NO.
No, it won’t cause a derailment as it will either be just swept off the tracks or flattened and the train continues on its journey.
WOW!
So, myth dispelled!
Maybe you’ll think we were just plain stupid believing such old wives tales, but I believe there’s a areson why we have old wives tales and also how myths come about
There are many facts we have never questioned as they come out plausible when someone explains them
And so it is sometimes with faith and religion
Many people are too lazy to read the Bible on their own such that they just take whatever the preacher has to say and make it gospel truth
What does the bible say about that?
Prove everything
“Prove all things; hold fast that which is good.” 1 Thessalonians 5:21
There are many things we take to be true that are not FACT
There are ’verses’ which have been said to be in the Bible that are reasons for people doing what they do
Last year (I like the sound of that better than last month though I’m just referring to December 2012), I attended a wedding at a roman catholic church. This was my first time to attend anything close to a service in a Roman Catholic church
So me being me, I was a bit judgmental about what was taking place and when I heard it, oh! I shouted to myself, silently of course!
Locally there is a phrase “inwa asi usararadze” translated meaning drink but don’t get drunk.
For real?
Yeah, for real
So some people actually attribute this phrase to a passage in the bible that has NEVER been pointed out to me (I oblige you)
Why is this so? I think this is because since it’s said in church so often as a principle people actually think it comes from the Bible
But it does not. Time stops me from continuing today but I will revisit this blog at some point this year.
For now I invite you to read the book of Jonah.
Happy 2012
This is my first blog in 2012
I’m thankful that God has given me another chance at life and I am here writing and give Him glory
As I reflect on 2011 I look at the good times
It’s easy to overshadow the good times with the bad times
My friends lost their loved ones
I lost a dear grandfather in 2011
I almost gave up on life twice in 2011
2011 was the year that on record was my worst working year
This may not be true as 2011 is still very close and the memory makes it so poainful it overshadows other bad working years
And so it is with life
The most recent hurt is what keeps coming up as you try to look back
But why do we look back?
We look back to see how the year was
We look back to see what we managed to do and achieved
We look back to see the bad decisions we made and didn’t make
We look back so as to be able to take out what was left undone and put it on this year’s resolution/goal/target chart
Whatever the reason we look back
When we look back the first thing we see is the greatest good or the greatest bad
For some we see the greatest good because we want to remember that event for the rest of the days to come
It really was not the greatest good but for us it’s the greatest good that we want to remember and make the greatest good that happened in that year
Sometimes we see that greatest bad that happened because it is still fresh in our minds
Though it did not happen in the recent past we still feel the pain as if it happened yesterday
Why?
Because we don’t want to forgive
We don’t want to let that person off the hook
We cannot let justice go not passed for that deed
We take so much time looking back sometimes we forget where we are
We are in the here and now
We need to look on this day and give thanks for it
Were it not for God’s grace we would not be here
The chorus “dai pasina Jesu ndiani waizondiona?” keeps playing in my head
It means if Jesus were not there I would not have been uplifted to where I am for people to even see that I exist. If it were not for Jesus I would have been a nobody
That’s what we need to drum into our heads each year we start
We need to give thanks for life
Good and bad, that is life
From the pain I’ve learnt to forgive
From the backstabbers I’ve learnt to be prudent
I’ve learnt to be quiet from the gossipers
From the trouble causers I’ve learnt to be prepared-always
From the heart break, I’ve learnt to take care of my heart on my own
From the sympathetic ones I’ve learnt how to give a shoulder to lean on
From the noise I’ve learnt to find solace in my spirit
From life, I’ve learnt how to live, love and let live
Yes, I have learnt how to love from life
From forgiveness I’ve learnt how to give and how to smile.
I almost discounted today as just another day like yesterday but I reminded myself that today is more special than yesterday
Today is more special as I’ve learnt how to forgive
I’ve learnt how to remember
I’ve learnt how to be a true friend
I’ve learnt that a good deed NEVER goes unnoticed- it may take long for the acknowledgement to come, but it DOES come
I’ve learnt that from friends comes love and that love will make me smile on the darkest of days, I just need to keep ALL my friends in remembrance
I said I almost didn’t write this blog
Then what made me do it?
The simple reminder to self that I said next year I would be writing daily on at least one of my four blogs
And also the fact that I just needed to give thanks to God for another year where I have life and my family and friends have life
There is peace in my country that is still beautiful no matter what people want to write about it
Come pay a visit and you’ll know why I longed to be home to a country where people still care about the next person enough to smile even if they don’t know you
They’ll smile because they can see the warmth in my eyes and they’ll smile because we’re wearing the same T-shirt
We are Zimbabweans in the blessed country of Zimbabwe.
God loves this country and from it many will rise to save God’s people
We need to take care of His sheep for many seek His face and do not know Him as yet.
The laborers are few and I call to you to care enough to call the brother next to you to Jesus
The harvest is plenty.
I’m thankful that God has given me another chance at life and I am here writing and give Him glory
As I reflect on 2011 I look at the good times
It’s easy to overshadow the good times with the bad times
My friends lost their loved ones
I lost a dear grandfather in 2011
I almost gave up on life twice in 2011
2011 was the year that on record was my worst working year
This may not be true as 2011 is still very close and the memory makes it so poainful it overshadows other bad working years
And so it is with life
The most recent hurt is what keeps coming up as you try to look back
But why do we look back?
We look back to see how the year was
We look back to see what we managed to do and achieved
We look back to see the bad decisions we made and didn’t make
We look back so as to be able to take out what was left undone and put it on this year’s resolution/goal/target chart
Whatever the reason we look back
When we look back the first thing we see is the greatest good or the greatest bad
For some we see the greatest good because we want to remember that event for the rest of the days to come
It really was not the greatest good but for us it’s the greatest good that we want to remember and make the greatest good that happened in that year
Sometimes we see that greatest bad that happened because it is still fresh in our minds
Though it did not happen in the recent past we still feel the pain as if it happened yesterday
Why?
Because we don’t want to forgive
We don’t want to let that person off the hook
We cannot let justice go not passed for that deed
We take so much time looking back sometimes we forget where we are
We are in the here and now
We need to look on this day and give thanks for it
Were it not for God’s grace we would not be here
The chorus “dai pasina Jesu ndiani waizondiona?” keeps playing in my head
It means if Jesus were not there I would not have been uplifted to where I am for people to even see that I exist. If it were not for Jesus I would have been a nobody
That’s what we need to drum into our heads each year we start
We need to give thanks for life
Good and bad, that is life
From the pain I’ve learnt to forgive
From the backstabbers I’ve learnt to be prudent
I’ve learnt to be quiet from the gossipers
From the trouble causers I’ve learnt to be prepared-always
From the heart break, I’ve learnt to take care of my heart on my own
From the sympathetic ones I’ve learnt how to give a shoulder to lean on
From the noise I’ve learnt to find solace in my spirit
From life, I’ve learnt how to live, love and let live
Yes, I have learnt how to love from life
From forgiveness I’ve learnt how to give and how to smile.
I almost discounted today as just another day like yesterday but I reminded myself that today is more special than yesterday
Today is more special as I’ve learnt how to forgive
I’ve learnt how to remember
I’ve learnt how to be a true friend
I’ve learnt that a good deed NEVER goes unnoticed- it may take long for the acknowledgement to come, but it DOES come
I’ve learnt that from friends comes love and that love will make me smile on the darkest of days, I just need to keep ALL my friends in remembrance
I said I almost didn’t write this blog
Then what made me do it?
The simple reminder to self that I said next year I would be writing daily on at least one of my four blogs
And also the fact that I just needed to give thanks to God for another year where I have life and my family and friends have life
There is peace in my country that is still beautiful no matter what people want to write about it
Come pay a visit and you’ll know why I longed to be home to a country where people still care about the next person enough to smile even if they don’t know you
They’ll smile because they can see the warmth in my eyes and they’ll smile because we’re wearing the same T-shirt
We are Zimbabweans in the blessed country of Zimbabwe.
God loves this country and from it many will rise to save God’s people
We need to take care of His sheep for many seek His face and do not know Him as yet.
The laborers are few and I call to you to care enough to call the brother next to you to Jesus
The harvest is plenty.
Listen and act NOW
Today I decided I would share even if it means my sleeping late
I’ve procrastinated for too long
Now I believe I just have to say what I ought to have said sometime back
In our prayer group someone shared about prayer and the need to pray and not give in to sleep when we ought to pray
Then I shared on hearing God’s voice to pray for someone
I explained that sometimes we get a feeling that we need to pray for someone
We may not know what challenge pr trouble they are facing and we just need to listen to God’s voice and go ahead and pray
What happens is that at that moment in time you would have prayed for cover for someone who needed someone to intercede for them ad by obeying God’s voice you would have played a part in moving the Kingdom for someone
When we were sharing prayer request, someone said we should remember someone we’d worked with who’d just lost her mother
I felt convicted at that moment as what I had shared came to life
Talk about your words coming back for you!
I had felt the need to get in touch with the person whose mum passed away two days ago
I felt I needed to just reach out and find out how she was doing but I postponed it for another day
What I just did was think of her and ask God to be with her and help her grow spiritually
Had I obeyed that I needed to just pray and get in touch, I may have been able to lessen the burden she now was facing
But if’s don’t work
I did not act when I should have
I really felt convicted
But someone else encouraged me that I ought not to feel discouraged and convicted that I did the wrong thing
What matters is that I acknowledge that I did wrong, ask for forgiveness and pray that going forward I listen and act on God’s voice
The devil came to steal, lie and destroy and he can use guilt to build a rift between ourselves and God
We need to be prayerful and repent of sins and accept and believe that we have been forgiven
What matters is the state of our hearts and our faith
Jesus died for our sins and it’s time we stop shying away from Him because of past guilt
That conviction has it’s place in the past
We need to receive Jesus’ blood as the payment for our sins and start working for His kingdom.
I’ve procrastinated for too long
Now I believe I just have to say what I ought to have said sometime back
In our prayer group someone shared about prayer and the need to pray and not give in to sleep when we ought to pray
Then I shared on hearing God’s voice to pray for someone
I explained that sometimes we get a feeling that we need to pray for someone
We may not know what challenge pr trouble they are facing and we just need to listen to God’s voice and go ahead and pray
What happens is that at that moment in time you would have prayed for cover for someone who needed someone to intercede for them ad by obeying God’s voice you would have played a part in moving the Kingdom for someone
When we were sharing prayer request, someone said we should remember someone we’d worked with who’d just lost her mother
I felt convicted at that moment as what I had shared came to life
Talk about your words coming back for you!
I had felt the need to get in touch with the person whose mum passed away two days ago
I felt I needed to just reach out and find out how she was doing but I postponed it for another day
What I just did was think of her and ask God to be with her and help her grow spiritually
Had I obeyed that I needed to just pray and get in touch, I may have been able to lessen the burden she now was facing
But if’s don’t work
I did not act when I should have
I really felt convicted
But someone else encouraged me that I ought not to feel discouraged and convicted that I did the wrong thing
What matters is that I acknowledge that I did wrong, ask for forgiveness and pray that going forward I listen and act on God’s voice
The devil came to steal, lie and destroy and he can use guilt to build a rift between ourselves and God
We need to be prayerful and repent of sins and accept and believe that we have been forgiven
What matters is the state of our hearts and our faith
Jesus died for our sins and it’s time we stop shying away from Him because of past guilt
That conviction has it’s place in the past
We need to receive Jesus’ blood as the payment for our sins and start working for His kingdom.
Afresh
Today I wish start afresh
Though the enemy encompass me and friends fear for their lives
I will stand up and claim my position
My heritage is in the Lord
He is my sustenance and I will not be afraid
For long I have waited wondering
But today I am stronger
I will stand on His promises
His promises do not fade and are forever true
My strength comes from the Lord
Doubt visits but it will not find anyone to heed it’s feeble suggestion
All is done and what’s left for me is to claim my position
I am restored and forever will stay under His shield
Glory be to God now and forever!
I live again!
Though the enemy encompass me and friends fear for their lives
I will stand up and claim my position
My heritage is in the Lord
He is my sustenance and I will not be afraid
For long I have waited wondering
But today I am stronger
I will stand on His promises
His promises do not fade and are forever true
My strength comes from the Lord
Doubt visits but it will not find anyone to heed it’s feeble suggestion
All is done and what’s left for me is to claim my position
I am restored and forever will stay under His shield
Glory be to God now and forever!
I live again!
Simple
Sometimes in life we need something fixed
We realize it’s not the way it’s meant to be and we make all the noise we can to get someone to notice it so that they make it normal again
When they hear us and they try fixing it and it does not work, we at some point begin to accept that this is now the new status quo
“Things have changed”
And a new routine with the change begins
It’s not that easy I tell you
The whole reason we were making noise about needing a fix in the first place is that we didn’t want things to change in the direction they did
But they did and we wanted them to be back to what they were
So we quietly at times learn to adjust
But usually we noisily adjust, hoping against hope things can be reversed and get back to “normal”
Ah! Don’t we all wish!!
And then one day………. we wake up and things are actually the way they were before
Jubilation!!!!!!
At the back of our minds we still had our fingers crossed as we worked with the new status quo with smiles on our face, secretly wishing for the “past”
Things are back to normal
We make all the noise we deem necessary
Actually, sometimes we grin silently as we don’t trust that it’s permissible that things are back to what they were
There’s just no knowing with this world we live in, is there?
What’s the whole point?
Well, about a month ago my phone suddenly ahd a problem with its date and time
It would move from 2pm to 2:29pm and start all over at 2pm straight after!
And the date never changed
The first day I was a bit superstitious ogled on by this guy but the next I definitely knew something was wrong
So I made some noise and a workmate with a similar phone said they ahd the same issue
Ah! At least I wasn’t alone, someone had the same problem
And so I noisily lived with the new status quo
I move around with two phones so I had to be using the other one for time
I tried all I could to fix the time issue but it just wouldn’t work
Software updates and all
Then just three days ago that workmate told me something that now has me totally changed in terms of my outlook on life
(Honestly I cannot believe I had become this complicated person that I glimpsed I now was )
They said all I had to do was switch off the phone and the time/date would work just fine
Presto! It worked!
I felt stupid for all the times I had tried to get it to work……… changing time zones, not locking the key pad, software updates, pc synchronizing…ad infinitum
A very simple, IF NOT OBVIOUS, fix
Why had I not tried it?
When my workmate told me they had the same issue they also added that the IT guys at the hubby’s place had said it was a software issue that was peculiar/common to that model
And so believing in science that much, I sought a software fix
I never googled the problem but just looked for ‘fix’ software
Long story short, try the easy way first
It just might work and you don’t sweat and feel embarrassed when someone tells you how to do things the SIMPLE way
Bottom line, there’s ALWAYS a simple way to getting things sorted out in life
We realize it’s not the way it’s meant to be and we make all the noise we can to get someone to notice it so that they make it normal again
When they hear us and they try fixing it and it does not work, we at some point begin to accept that this is now the new status quo
“Things have changed”
And a new routine with the change begins
It’s not that easy I tell you
The whole reason we were making noise about needing a fix in the first place is that we didn’t want things to change in the direction they did
But they did and we wanted them to be back to what they were
So we quietly at times learn to adjust
But usually we noisily adjust, hoping against hope things can be reversed and get back to “normal”
Ah! Don’t we all wish!!
And then one day………. we wake up and things are actually the way they were before
Jubilation!!!!!!
At the back of our minds we still had our fingers crossed as we worked with the new status quo with smiles on our face, secretly wishing for the “past”
Things are back to normal
We make all the noise we deem necessary
Actually, sometimes we grin silently as we don’t trust that it’s permissible that things are back to what they were
There’s just no knowing with this world we live in, is there?
What’s the whole point?
Well, about a month ago my phone suddenly ahd a problem with its date and time
It would move from 2pm to 2:29pm and start all over at 2pm straight after!
And the date never changed
The first day I was a bit superstitious ogled on by this guy but the next I definitely knew something was wrong
So I made some noise and a workmate with a similar phone said they ahd the same issue
Ah! At least I wasn’t alone, someone had the same problem
And so I noisily lived with the new status quo
I move around with two phones so I had to be using the other one for time
I tried all I could to fix the time issue but it just wouldn’t work
Software updates and all
Then just three days ago that workmate told me something that now has me totally changed in terms of my outlook on life
(Honestly I cannot believe I had become this complicated person that I glimpsed I now was )
They said all I had to do was switch off the phone and the time/date would work just fine
Presto! It worked!
I felt stupid for all the times I had tried to get it to work……… changing time zones, not locking the key pad, software updates, pc synchronizing…ad infinitum
A very simple, IF NOT OBVIOUS, fix
Why had I not tried it?
When my workmate told me they had the same issue they also added that the IT guys at the hubby’s place had said it was a software issue that was peculiar/common to that model
And so believing in science that much, I sought a software fix
I never googled the problem but just looked for ‘fix’ software
Long story short, try the easy way first
It just might work and you don’t sweat and feel embarrassed when someone tells you how to do things the SIMPLE way
Bottom line, there’s ALWAYS a simple way to getting things sorted out in life
What are you afraid of?
I was watching Akeelah and the bee yesterday and I really fell for a certain quote. Here it is in it's fullness.
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?' Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."
- Marianne Williamson (A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of A Course in Miracles)
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?' Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."
- Marianne Williamson (A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of A Course in Miracles)
Be thankful for NOW
Yesterday I had a pleasant surprise
A friend sent an email and from the body of the email I didn’t see or learn anything different from all the other emails I’d been sent before
However when I scrolled to the bottom of the message, there it was!
It hit me
(Sometimes we overlook the small things because they’re only part of the main message
Actually, you can do without reading the small print most of the times)
But this time the small print stuck out and I saw it so clearly
"Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not..
Remember that what you now have was once among the things you only hoped for!"
So often I look at my life and I see the gaps
I see what I don’t have
But this time I saw what I have
With hindsight we all can be more grateful for our lives
The relationships that we have, once were not there
The jobs we have once were only a dream or an idea that was possible
Just think about it, that promotion is now a wish because you have a job
If there was no job you would not e wishing for a promotion
That marriage?
If you didn’t have a relationship to begin with, you wouldn’t be wishing to get married to that person
That unruly child you wish would just be more mature and responsible….
You once wished for a family and healthy children
So I challenge you to take stock of your life’s wishes and see what you want to step up from
Acknowledging that you are somewhere that you need to be uplifted from is the first step to being thankful for what you have
Cherish each moment of your life as you look at what else you can get
If you don’t, you’ll miss out on life and wonder where it all went
A friend sent an email and from the body of the email I didn’t see or learn anything different from all the other emails I’d been sent before
However when I scrolled to the bottom of the message, there it was!
It hit me
(Sometimes we overlook the small things because they’re only part of the main message
Actually, you can do without reading the small print most of the times)
But this time the small print stuck out and I saw it so clearly
"Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not..
Remember that what you now have was once among the things you only hoped for!"
So often I look at my life and I see the gaps
I see what I don’t have
But this time I saw what I have
With hindsight we all can be more grateful for our lives
The relationships that we have, once were not there
The jobs we have once were only a dream or an idea that was possible
Just think about it, that promotion is now a wish because you have a job
If there was no job you would not e wishing for a promotion
That marriage?
If you didn’t have a relationship to begin with, you wouldn’t be wishing to get married to that person
That unruly child you wish would just be more mature and responsible….
You once wished for a family and healthy children
So I challenge you to take stock of your life’s wishes and see what you want to step up from
Acknowledging that you are somewhere that you need to be uplifted from is the first step to being thankful for what you have
Cherish each moment of your life as you look at what else you can get
If you don’t, you’ll miss out on life and wonder where it all went
Welcome, 2011
So we made it into 2011
So we say
How exactly did we do that?
We did not make it; God let us see the beginning of the year 2011
God has granted us life and we should live it according to His ways
So we say
How exactly did we do that?
We did not make it; God let us see the beginning of the year 2011
God has granted us life and we should live it according to His ways
Spread the gospel
I had quite a wonderful time sharing the gospel wt a colleague. It's not often that one gets 2 talk about Christ at work.
Waiting
It's never easy to wait. It's actually more difficult when everything around you is moving but someone tells u that u still have 2 wait. It's not yet ur turn. You lose hope coz logic says u've been left behind. Emotion cries out why me? But still u wait. What's the harm when u've got nothing better 2 do. So wait u do.
Victory
Indeed, if God be for us, who can succeed against us?
I remember the last month as being one of trials and tribulation for me
I was hard pressed on all fronts- physical, spiritual, emotional and social
Alone I wouldn’t have made it
With God I made it
I remember the other day thinking that it was my own effort that pulled me through then I saw that I was deceiving myself
Events that took place and which resulted in me coming out on top, would not have happened if everything had gone according to what I deem normal.
Normally many of the things that happened would not have taken place given the timeline results were needed.
Even a graphical extrapolation of previous events would not have come anywhaere near what resulted
I will give God all the glory as without him I would have been shamed
I would have failed
The enemy would have rejoiced in my sorrow
But glory be to God!
He gave me the tools to make it
He gave me the presence of mind to just pray
Yes, prayer conquers much
I believe prayer conquers all
I would not be rejoicing had it not been that the Master of the universe was there all the way to make sure that I made it
I let God do the rest
I will not trust in man as he forgets
God always remembers-He forgives
Man will be overwhelmed
God is all encompassing. He is all able
Man will pass judgment based on what they know
God knows the plan He has for me and so everything works for good
Man will look at the outward appearance
God can see all through to my soul. My spirit is safe in His hands
Man knows from what he has learnt
God has all the knowledge
I remember the last month as being one of trials and tribulation for me
I was hard pressed on all fronts- physical, spiritual, emotional and social
Alone I wouldn’t have made it
With God I made it
I remember the other day thinking that it was my own effort that pulled me through then I saw that I was deceiving myself
Events that took place and which resulted in me coming out on top, would not have happened if everything had gone according to what I deem normal.
Normally many of the things that happened would not have taken place given the timeline results were needed.
Even a graphical extrapolation of previous events would not have come anywhaere near what resulted
I will give God all the glory as without him I would have been shamed
I would have failed
The enemy would have rejoiced in my sorrow
But glory be to God!
He gave me the tools to make it
He gave me the presence of mind to just pray
Yes, prayer conquers much
I believe prayer conquers all
I would not be rejoicing had it not been that the Master of the universe was there all the way to make sure that I made it
I let God do the rest
I will not trust in man as he forgets
God always remembers-He forgives
Man will be overwhelmed
God is all encompassing. He is all able
Man will pass judgment based on what they know
God knows the plan He has for me and so everything works for good
Man will look at the outward appearance
God can see all through to my soul. My spirit is safe in His hands
Man knows from what he has learnt
God has all the knowledge
Thanks
I’m taking a moment to give thanks
I’ll shout Hosanna Almighty!
He is so wonderful
My Guide never leaves me
I’m thankful for His patience with me
I’m thankful for His Love
I don’t deserve all the joys I have but He still showers blessing upon blessing
I never thought I’d get to a stag when I’d ask “who am I and what is my house?”
But today I am there
I never did anything to deserve it
He just loves me and shows it everyday
I will praise Him forever more
Thank you Lord for loving me regardless of all my errors
Thank you Lord for reminding me I am always in your eye
Thank you for teaching me to remember
Thank you for remembering me even if I’ve never deserved it
Thank you
I will shout Your praises forever more
Thank You.
I’ll shout Hosanna Almighty!
He is so wonderful
My Guide never leaves me
I’m thankful for His patience with me
I’m thankful for His Love
I don’t deserve all the joys I have but He still showers blessing upon blessing
I never thought I’d get to a stag when I’d ask “who am I and what is my house?”
But today I am there
I never did anything to deserve it
He just loves me and shows it everyday
I will praise Him forever more
Thank you Lord for loving me regardless of all my errors
Thank you Lord for reminding me I am always in your eye
Thank you for teaching me to remember
Thank you for remembering me even if I’ve never deserved it
Thank you
I will shout Your praises forever more
Thank You.
Jealous or what!
So now this is a day after the mid-week game
There’s a girl in one of the local papers proudly waving a poster written “Kaka I love you” in the crowd that attended our infamous match of Zimbabwe vs. Brazil
The guys in our office had quite a ball over the photo
Apparently it’s just not ok waving a poster saying you love a football player when there’s another guy who dotes on you and at one time you said you loved them
Actually it’s a nono to wave posters saying you love some famous person
Not even the Brazilian Kaka whom the whole stadium made noise for and cheered when he entered the stadium
If one of my workmates were dating the said girl with the poster, well there wouldn’t be a relationship to speak about after such a display of affection
The females obviously were not of the same mind
It’s improbable that Kaka would even give a second look at the poster (if he noticed it at all!)
And the proclamation doesn’t mean the girl loves her supposed boyfriend any less coz she’s a fan of Kaka
It’s just what fans do
You seriously cannot part ways with your beloved coz they’ve got a poster saying they love some football star
But I guess men will be men
And yes, men will be men, I guess
Just a few days after the poster feature in the paper guess what the follow up?
I wouldn’t have believed it if I hadn’t seen it, especially f it had been one of the guys from the office saying it
There was a cartoon of ‘that girl’ (no doubt coz the cartoon was waving a poster saying something about Kaka 7 the girl was wearing a beret)
Would you guess what was on the poster?
“Kaka how was your journey back? When will you be coming to take me?”
See?
Men will be men
Insecurities, insecurities.
There’s a girl in one of the local papers proudly waving a poster written “Kaka I love you” in the crowd that attended our infamous match of Zimbabwe vs. Brazil
The guys in our office had quite a ball over the photo
Apparently it’s just not ok waving a poster saying you love a football player when there’s another guy who dotes on you and at one time you said you loved them
Actually it’s a nono to wave posters saying you love some famous person
Not even the Brazilian Kaka whom the whole stadium made noise for and cheered when he entered the stadium
If one of my workmates were dating the said girl with the poster, well there wouldn’t be a relationship to speak about after such a display of affection
The females obviously were not of the same mind
It’s improbable that Kaka would even give a second look at the poster (if he noticed it at all!)
And the proclamation doesn’t mean the girl loves her supposed boyfriend any less coz she’s a fan of Kaka
It’s just what fans do
You seriously cannot part ways with your beloved coz they’ve got a poster saying they love some football star
But I guess men will be men
And yes, men will be men, I guess
Just a few days after the poster feature in the paper guess what the follow up?
I wouldn’t have believed it if I hadn’t seen it, especially f it had been one of the guys from the office saying it
There was a cartoon of ‘that girl’ (no doubt coz the cartoon was waving a poster saying something about Kaka 7 the girl was wearing a beret)
Would you guess what was on the poster?
“Kaka how was your journey back? When will you be coming to take me?”
See?
Men will be men
Insecurities, insecurities.
I was there
It was just one of those days where you just do things of a whim coz you just feel like it.
It was one of those days where you say to yourself , “why not?”
I asked one of my workmates if he was going to watch the Brazil vs. Zimbabwe Zimbabwe vs. Brazil match in the afternoon.
Yes, he was going.
Actually he had two tickets
He was selling the other for $20
I told him I wanted it and the response he’d sell it for it’s face value of $10
I asked him to keep it for me as I still hadn’t asked my boss for time off
Imagine this
A world cup team coming to play a friendly game with you local national team mid-week with the kick off at 3:30pm
Yeah, I just wanted to go
This was going to be most likely one of those once in a lifetime events especially for me
And such chances don’t come that easy
He let’s me know that he’s also put on Facebook that he’s got a ticket for sale
I just silently hope he’ll still have it
Next time I come across this guy he asks if I really want the ticket as I hadn’t got back to him
Yes, I sort of still want the ticket coz my boss has gone for the game before I had a chance to ask him for permission to go watch soccer instead of working
So he looks for someone to flog the ticket for whatever price they feel he just wants 10 bucks back
That’s what he tells me when I ask for ‘my’ ticket after successfully bargaining for the afternoon off
This isn’t typical of me, but I’m no typical person as well
So I finally have my ticket but logistics will be tricky
I know the place will be packed and I cannot risk going with my car and hope to be home before 9pm even if home is only 10minutes away from the stadium.
I get a lift from a workmate who’s going and I leave my car at work
One hassle off my plate
Now for the hope that we’ll be able to get in before the match starts
I give little credit to my fellow Man
We’re seated an hour before the game begins
And what do I have to say to myself?
I WAS THERE!!!
It’s not everyday that you watch a two time footballer of the year play a game in your local stadium and you’re down here in Africa and your local team ain’t even trying for a glimpse of the coveted cup
I saw Kaka
Much more later about the favourite of the team
It was one of those days where you say to yourself , “why not?”
I asked one of my workmates if he was going to watch the Brazil vs. Zimbabwe Zimbabwe vs. Brazil match in the afternoon.
Yes, he was going.
Actually he had two tickets
He was selling the other for $20
I told him I wanted it and the response he’d sell it for it’s face value of $10
I asked him to keep it for me as I still hadn’t asked my boss for time off
Imagine this
A world cup team coming to play a friendly game with you local national team mid-week with the kick off at 3:30pm
Yeah, I just wanted to go
This was going to be most likely one of those once in a lifetime events especially for me
And such chances don’t come that easy
He let’s me know that he’s also put on Facebook that he’s got a ticket for sale
I just silently hope he’ll still have it
Next time I come across this guy he asks if I really want the ticket as I hadn’t got back to him
Yes, I sort of still want the ticket coz my boss has gone for the game before I had a chance to ask him for permission to go watch soccer instead of working
So he looks for someone to flog the ticket for whatever price they feel he just wants 10 bucks back
That’s what he tells me when I ask for ‘my’ ticket after successfully bargaining for the afternoon off
This isn’t typical of me, but I’m no typical person as well
So I finally have my ticket but logistics will be tricky
I know the place will be packed and I cannot risk going with my car and hope to be home before 9pm even if home is only 10minutes away from the stadium.
I get a lift from a workmate who’s going and I leave my car at work
One hassle off my plate
Now for the hope that we’ll be able to get in before the match starts
I give little credit to my fellow Man
We’re seated an hour before the game begins
And what do I have to say to myself?
I WAS THERE!!!
It’s not everyday that you watch a two time footballer of the year play a game in your local stadium and you’re down here in Africa and your local team ain’t even trying for a glimpse of the coveted cup
I saw Kaka
Much more later about the favourite of the team
My easter story
I’m not someone who could be called religious
Why I say so is because I’m not legalistic about holidays even if they have a Christian backing
I have my reasons
So anyway here I was this Easter, not having gone for camp with everyone else at church
The guys who stayed behind knew we still had to stand in prayer together as ‘left behind’s
So we had morning prayers early each morning in one of any chosen homes
This we did till Sunday when we knew the campers were coming back and Christ had risen
Then as we’re used to a church service on Sunday, the question came up almost automatically where we’d attend service
I volunteered the United Methodist Church as that’s where I always go if for any reason I cannot fellowship at my church
Service begins at 10:30am
So we went as a group and when we get there we notice the place is so quiet and not lively
Unlike a church on Sunday
Nevertheless we approach and as we near we see the resident Pastor having his breakfast outside the house
We approach and introductions are done
He chides us for not coming all the other days as apparently our fellow brethren from the locality were coming and they were known to be ‘left behind’s from MCZ
No excuses and we have to find a place to attend service
Opposite is the Zimbabwe Assemblies of god church (ZAOGA) but it’s not first choice as we’re not that close
We ask each other, what about the churches we fraternise with?
The nearest and first to come to mind is The Dutch Reformed Church in Zimbabwe
So we able to the church and service is just beginning
We introduce ourselves when the part of visitors comes up and we feel welcome
Now into the service
As we sind we’re clapping probably the loudest and swaying to the music
When prayer comes, it’s one person who prays as the rest bow their heads and at the end when the person says ‘amen’, we affirm’ amen’ in unison
It just could be noticed the loud ‘amen’s came from our bench
It cannot be helped and all the other prayers we ‘amen’ed a bit softly
Now comes Holy communion
Of course it’s going to be different from how we do it
1 Corinthians 11 was read from verse 23 to the end
Then instead of people going to receive bread and wine, ushers came with it
Of course not having prepared ourselves for communion and having listened to first Corinthians, there was no doubt that we would not partake communion at this point in time
Let alone the fact that we did not know what their ‘rules’ for communion are
As the bread passed we just looked at each other and passed it across
Then came the ……….wine
Altar wine
I don’t know why but we don’t do wine at my church
All parishes that I know don’t do wine
We do raspberry syrup!
That was a great change
Great change number two
Soon after communion we left as the service wasn’t just auguring well with all of us
Now, I’ll not be judgemental
The whole point is just to appreciate how things are done differently in our churches, what brings us together, what sets us apart and what makes us stay with our churches
The two great changes are that at my church we go and receive communion
It doesn’t come to us
No matter how large the congregation when communion has to be had, we go and receive it
In cases where we’re in our thousands like at a stadium for whatever celebration or event we’ll be having, we queue for it and that’s the only time we won’t kneel to receive communion, but we bow or courtesy as we receive it
When we go back to our seats, we individually pray in silence
Number two is the raspberry
This is my take- I guess somewhere along the lines wine was just taken off due to the alcoholic factor and abuse
Our members are not supposed to take alcohol
So what if we were to give it to them each month in a small cup?
Would not some of them just want to taste it a bit more and buy a bottle and see what happens?
Totally my take and I’m good with that
Why this bothered me in this instance is that children were taking it
I guess someone gets my point and issue somewhere along the lines.
I encourage you to just visit other parishes or churches when you have the opportunity
That way you’ll see how others get to communicate with god and what makes them different from you
You’ll also have a reason to stay where you are or even change when you understand what true worship and communion with God is really about.
Why I say so is because I’m not legalistic about holidays even if they have a Christian backing
I have my reasons
So anyway here I was this Easter, not having gone for camp with everyone else at church
The guys who stayed behind knew we still had to stand in prayer together as ‘left behind’s
So we had morning prayers early each morning in one of any chosen homes
This we did till Sunday when we knew the campers were coming back and Christ had risen
Then as we’re used to a church service on Sunday, the question came up almost automatically where we’d attend service
I volunteered the United Methodist Church as that’s where I always go if for any reason I cannot fellowship at my church
Service begins at 10:30am
So we went as a group and when we get there we notice the place is so quiet and not lively
Unlike a church on Sunday
Nevertheless we approach and as we near we see the resident Pastor having his breakfast outside the house
We approach and introductions are done
He chides us for not coming all the other days as apparently our fellow brethren from the locality were coming and they were known to be ‘left behind’s from MCZ
No excuses and we have to find a place to attend service
Opposite is the Zimbabwe Assemblies of god church (ZAOGA) but it’s not first choice as we’re not that close
We ask each other, what about the churches we fraternise with?
The nearest and first to come to mind is The Dutch Reformed Church in Zimbabwe
So we able to the church and service is just beginning
We introduce ourselves when the part of visitors comes up and we feel welcome
Now into the service
As we sind we’re clapping probably the loudest and swaying to the music
When prayer comes, it’s one person who prays as the rest bow their heads and at the end when the person says ‘amen’, we affirm’ amen’ in unison
It just could be noticed the loud ‘amen’s came from our bench
It cannot be helped and all the other prayers we ‘amen’ed a bit softly
Now comes Holy communion
Of course it’s going to be different from how we do it
1 Corinthians 11 was read from verse 23 to the end
Then instead of people going to receive bread and wine, ushers came with it
Of course not having prepared ourselves for communion and having listened to first Corinthians, there was no doubt that we would not partake communion at this point in time
Let alone the fact that we did not know what their ‘rules’ for communion are
As the bread passed we just looked at each other and passed it across
Then came the ……….wine
Altar wine
I don’t know why but we don’t do wine at my church
All parishes that I know don’t do wine
We do raspberry syrup!
That was a great change
Great change number two
Soon after communion we left as the service wasn’t just auguring well with all of us
Now, I’ll not be judgemental
The whole point is just to appreciate how things are done differently in our churches, what brings us together, what sets us apart and what makes us stay with our churches
The two great changes are that at my church we go and receive communion
It doesn’t come to us
No matter how large the congregation when communion has to be had, we go and receive it
In cases where we’re in our thousands like at a stadium for whatever celebration or event we’ll be having, we queue for it and that’s the only time we won’t kneel to receive communion, but we bow or courtesy as we receive it
When we go back to our seats, we individually pray in silence
Number two is the raspberry
This is my take- I guess somewhere along the lines wine was just taken off due to the alcoholic factor and abuse
Our members are not supposed to take alcohol
So what if we were to give it to them each month in a small cup?
Would not some of them just want to taste it a bit more and buy a bottle and see what happens?
Totally my take and I’m good with that
Why this bothered me in this instance is that children were taking it
I guess someone gets my point and issue somewhere along the lines.
I encourage you to just visit other parishes or churches when you have the opportunity
That way you’ll see how others get to communicate with god and what makes them different from you
You’ll also have a reason to stay where you are or even change when you understand what true worship and communion with God is really about.
Treasured youth
I’ve been busy and I can feel I’m burnt out
Yesterday I went back home from work to sleep
Yes, so that I could sleep as that’s what my body needed
I took quite a big responsibility unawares and it’s a bit too late to retract
I realised it as I stood up to introduce myself
(I couldn't relish the thought of being referred to as that one in a blue top when news got round that I'd quit)
I’ll have to carry the burden for as long as I can
Knowing me,
That could be for at least half of this year
Anyways, that’s my burden for the gospel this year
Sunday we had to feed circa 200 youths at church as we had a get together
Now the events that transpired prior to the Sunday had made me almost bet I’d resign my post
But as the day went by, I calmed down and I accepted the burden for this year
I pray it won’t be harder than it has been
I pray it won’t be as personal as it has been
I pray it won’t be as frustrating as it has been
I pray it won’t be as intimidating as it has been
I pray the road will be there as I’ve seen
I asked myself, if not me then who?
And why not me?
What have I done for the gospel lately?
And so I trudge on as treasurer for both the local parish and the local circuit
It’s quite an experience working with all age groups you can put into that category
The upside cap is 35 years
You can imagine all you want.
I will remember and treasure the days of my youth.
Yesterday I went back home from work to sleep
Yes, so that I could sleep as that’s what my body needed
I took quite a big responsibility unawares and it’s a bit too late to retract
I realised it as I stood up to introduce myself
(I couldn't relish the thought of being referred to as that one in a blue top when news got round that I'd quit)
I’ll have to carry the burden for as long as I can
Knowing me,
That could be for at least half of this year
Anyways, that’s my burden for the gospel this year
Sunday we had to feed circa 200 youths at church as we had a get together
Now the events that transpired prior to the Sunday had made me almost bet I’d resign my post
But as the day went by, I calmed down and I accepted the burden for this year
I pray it won’t be harder than it has been
I pray it won’t be as personal as it has been
I pray it won’t be as frustrating as it has been
I pray it won’t be as intimidating as it has been
I pray the road will be there as I’ve seen
I asked myself, if not me then who?
And why not me?
What have I done for the gospel lately?
And so I trudge on as treasurer for both the local parish and the local circuit
It’s quite an experience working with all age groups you can put into that category
The upside cap is 35 years
You can imagine all you want.
I will remember and treasure the days of my youth.
I will not be mocked.
My thesaurus couldn’t get another word for alcohol.
For beer, there were some words; I chose ‘alcoholic drink’.
For wine, there are.....adjectives... for colour .
I’m sorry I never said anything to the person who walked out of this office about wine with some colleagues. They say their church allows wine drinking and does not allow beer drinking.
Now, when I go to Wikipedia I find that there are three general classes that alcoholic beverages are put into; beer, wine and spirits.
I wasn’t talking to this person but I heard their conversation. The persons they talked to didn’t sound any alarm at what they said. I wonder why
Maybe they also believe wine is ok and beer is not ok
My contention is- do these people know the basic facts about wine and beer?
Beer generally has a lower alcoholic content than wine, hence people drink less of the latter.
There’s this article I quite liked when it comes to explaining about Jesus and wine
Now, my simple understanding is that if something is good, you’ll like it
If something is bad, you should hate it
Simple, no borderline
When I read that wine is a mocker, automatically it signals to me that this is something to be avoided at all costs
Society has through the ages openly stated to all that wine is a lesser evil than beer, yet the two are in the same class, the latter more potent but very subtle
And some Christians have been caught up in this deception
Read with me Proverbs 23:29-35
“Who hath woe? who hath sorrow? who hath contentions? who hath babbling? who hath wounds without cause? who hath redness of eyes? They that tarry long at the wine; they that go to seek mixed wine. Look not thou upon the wine when it is red, when it giveth his colour in the cup, when it moveth itself aright. At the last it biteth like a serpent, and stingeth like an adder. Thine eyes shall behold strange women, and thine heart shall utter perverse things. Yea, thou shalt be as he that lieth down in the midst of the sea, or as he that lieth upon the top of a mast. They have stricken me, shalt thou say, and I was not sick; they have beaten me, and I felt it not: when shall I awake? I will seek it yet again. ”
The truth is openly there. The short and long term effects of the alcohol called wine.
When people talk alcohol abuse, they talk of beer. Rarely does wine feature
And so, silently, it erodes our morals and values and goes by unnoticed
Many people profess to not drinking beer but take wine
I leave the decision to yourselves and enlightenment from the Bible
By any other name alcohol is alcohol no matter how nicely dressed and presented.
For beer, there were some words; I chose ‘alcoholic drink’.
For wine, there are.....adjectives... for colour .
I’m sorry I never said anything to the person who walked out of this office about wine with some colleagues. They say their church allows wine drinking and does not allow beer drinking.
Now, when I go to Wikipedia I find that there are three general classes that alcoholic beverages are put into; beer, wine and spirits.
I wasn’t talking to this person but I heard their conversation. The persons they talked to didn’t sound any alarm at what they said. I wonder why
Maybe they also believe wine is ok and beer is not ok
My contention is- do these people know the basic facts about wine and beer?
Beer generally has a lower alcoholic content than wine, hence people drink less of the latter.
There’s this article I quite liked when it comes to explaining about Jesus and wine
Now, my simple understanding is that if something is good, you’ll like it
If something is bad, you should hate it
Simple, no borderline
When I read that wine is a mocker, automatically it signals to me that this is something to be avoided at all costs
Society has through the ages openly stated to all that wine is a lesser evil than beer, yet the two are in the same class, the latter more potent but very subtle
And some Christians have been caught up in this deception
Read with me Proverbs 23:29-35
“Who hath woe? who hath sorrow? who hath contentions? who hath babbling? who hath wounds without cause? who hath redness of eyes? They that tarry long at the wine; they that go to seek mixed wine. Look not thou upon the wine when it is red, when it giveth his colour in the cup, when it moveth itself aright. At the last it biteth like a serpent, and stingeth like an adder. Thine eyes shall behold strange women, and thine heart shall utter perverse things. Yea, thou shalt be as he that lieth down in the midst of the sea, or as he that lieth upon the top of a mast. They have stricken me, shalt thou say, and I was not sick; they have beaten me, and I felt it not: when shall I awake? I will seek it yet again. ”
The truth is openly there. The short and long term effects of the alcohol called wine.
When people talk alcohol abuse, they talk of beer. Rarely does wine feature
And so, silently, it erodes our morals and values and goes by unnoticed
Many people profess to not drinking beer but take wine
I leave the decision to yourselves and enlightenment from the Bible
By any other name alcohol is alcohol no matter how nicely dressed and presented.
My fast so far
So I started fasting after the rest of the people did. There was no way I could start on the 1st with me being the cook at home. When I started I prayed that I be able to fast even just one day. I had lost the will power to not think about food when I’m fasting. I’d always find excuses on why I couldn’t and when you look for an excuse, you get a bagful of them. I sorry to say I kept that bag through 2009 and all I managed were half day fasts. So here I am in 2010 and I said this is a personal fast and it’ll take as long as necessary. There’s no definite stopping point. Why? I’ve been selfish in the past and all I’d think of was me. This time I’m doing this for others first then me. Now that’s going to take some time coz I love people. I truly do and when I’m burdened to pray for something for someone, I cannot heap on my requests there. It’s a love task I need to do before I look at my own issues. So here I am and I haven’t started on myself as yet. I’m not too demanding - just “not yet there” me :)
Day one
My resolution on keeping fitter- I go for a morning jog. I feel great. I’m asking myself if I’ll be able to get through this one. This is practically the first full fats in a year. I sail through
Day two
It’s raining so I won’t jog. I decide I’ll do three days a week, so I sleep on. Spanners start flying into the works. I ignore them and manage the day.
Day three
It’s raining again. Again, there’s this one spanner which just wants attention. I explore and dig a bit deep. I see the origin and pray that it’ll just disappear. I almost confronted the issue head on but I get a grip of reality on time and I let it pass. It was a most difficult day. Even the evening was not that calm.
Day four
Do I really need to jog seeing that I’m fasting? I feel drained a bit and wonder if I’ll carry on.
Day five
Still no jog. I’ve shelved it for later. After the fast. I smile when I see that I can fit into my black jeans without asking if they’re not tighter than when I first wore them.
Day six
This is two days after day five. (I just could not do it as I had to prepare food over the weekend. I’ll have to say I didn’t dine and fill up as I thought I would. I just enjoyed some of the things I don’t normally take for dinner.) The big question in the morning- will I last since I’ve been off for two full days? A week that started with a spanner dampens one’s spirit in some sort of way but I pulled through. I lasted and am on day seven.
Many more days to go
